i hate my life, i hate my family, i wish that i could just disappear. i can't keep a journal, since my sister reads it, i can't have friends on facebook, since what i write and joke about with those friends, gets back to my mom and i get lectured. fuck my whole screwed up life. i wish i had never been born, that i never even existed. FUCK THIS WHOLE FUCKING WORLD!!!

ok, now i'm really pissed. monday i get a really horrific letter left on my car at work, thursday i get yelled at my a sup who doesn't know she is talking to the wrong person (literally), and today i get yelled at by my car company. well fuck them all. oh yah, throw in my parents who dont' seem to realize i'm not 16 anymore, and that my business is my own, don't but in. throw in the whole stupid christmas season and the crazyness that goes with it. on top of that you can throw in cancer and how it just eats people alive, and leaves the living devastated when the one that you love dies. throw in that i already have high anxiety and depression, and my meds aren't doing their job 100%, then I am the one that is FUCKED!!!